The Love You Deserve

Sadness be gone, let's be people who deserve to be loved, who are worthy, cause we are worthy.
-HappyThankYouMorePlease

Good morning.

I feel like it is important to put out an important lesson I've been learning as of late. This thought originated when I saw HappyThankYouMorePlease. Here's the truth in a strange movie of a man who harbors an eight year old run-away:

We are young, we are beautiful, and we are capable and deserving of love. Well, love and respect. We deserve it from our mother and father, our siblings, friends, and coworkers. We deserve pure and unconditional love. We deserve all of this from each other, but above all, we deserve this from ourselves.

Regardless of whether or not we see it, we set the expectations of how people should treat us. To starve ourselves, to hurt ourselves, to sleep around and not feel good about it...well, why should other people treat you with more respect?

Please don't misunderstand me. I am not perfect. I have starved myself and scarred myself. I have slept with people to feel like I am worth something. It's a process and I am working on it. The first thing I realized is that I am a whole person, complete with flaws and beauty. I am selfish and naive and emotional. But loving yourself is not ignoring the flaws. Loving yourself is accepting who you are as you are.

A dear friend of mine told me once of a book in poetic format entitled The Woman Who Married Herself by Donna Spector. I have not yet read it, but as my friend explains, the woman in this story falls madly in love with herself and decides to wed herself. Now, I don't know if I would go as far as to marry myself. I joke with my friends that if I did, I would probably kill myself on my honeymoon and throw myself in the Hudson River.

However, I have adopted myself as a little sister and best friend. The hardest part was accepting that I'm deserving of love from myself and therefore from others. When I needed someone to "talk sweet" to me or I needed some love, I began to text myself. I saved my own number as a contact in my phone, took a beautiful picture of myself, and began texting. They were things I really wanted to hear from someone else. Things like "Hey Gorgeous. I just wanted to let you know how absolutly stunning you looked tonight. You're a strong, beautiful girl. I love you so much. Sweet Dreams." At first, it felt vain. But if I were talking to my best friend, I know he would say things like that. I would say those things to him. This is when I began to realize that I could be my own best friend.

Try it, maybe you'll receive the love you want.

Until Tomorrow,

Alaska

1.HappyThankYouMorePlease: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1481572/
2.The Woman Who Married Herself: http://www.thepedestalmagazine.com/gallery.php?item=15256