My Tiny Tin Heart

And I may be romantic
And I may risk my life for it
But I ain't gonna die for you
You know I ain't no Juliet
And I'm not gonna watch you wanna burn yourself out baby
No I'm not gonna stop you
Cause I'm not the one that's crazy
-Ampersand by Amanda Palmer

Sometimes, you have days where you just want to curl up and go to bed, leave the world to its own devices. Sometimes, love doesn't exist in your heart and you just hate everything. I've been having one of those weeks. Darling readers, I will never lie to you.

I think I need this "Inspire Me" week most of all. 

Here is what I will say, though. Even in these extremely dark moments, I know I need not be without hope. If you are a good person, then you should realize that you're not the only one. You're never the only one.

I will divulge a little bit of myself here. Sometimes, I really fucking miss my ex. Is it healthy? No. Is it helping? No.

So, I'm at a stalemate. I can't move on, but I can't go back. It's really tough. What's a girl to do? Well, I have musical therepy. I pick the songs that fit my mood and pick up the results. What did they do? Amanda sang, "I may be romantic and I may risk my life for it, but I ain't gonna die for you, you know I ain't no Juliet." Laura Marling sang, "I will never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand..." 

I feel so much closer to feeling better by listening. I shall withdraw to my tiny tin heart for brandy and cigars. I don't advise this method. I really don't. Sometimes, however, you need to feel a little less. Please just don't live your life that way.

That's all for tonight, but please watch for Inspire Me Week. I promise to inspire excellence.

Love Always,

Alaska